I never really had the desire to search for my birth mother until my wife had our first child. While holding my newborn son in the hospital, the realization of the profound sacrifice she made for my life began to hit me. I couldn’t help but wonder about my birth parents, what they were like and if I shared any physical traits with them.
Growing up, my parents shared what little information they had about my birth mother and continually reassured me that she made that difficult decision out of love for me. I’ve always had a solid relationship with my parents and was grateful to count on their support and encouragement when I decided to search for my birth mother through CCS.
My CCS caseworker spent a lot of time preparing me for every possible outcome, helping me manage my expectations and plan for possible outcomes at every point in the process. Months had passed when I received a phone call from my caseworker telling me my birth mother had been found. We exchanged several letters through the agency and my birth mother was able to answer so many of my lifelong questions regarding my adoption. My love and appreciation for the sacrifice my birth mother made only grew stronger as I learned more about the circumstances of her story and how much she had thought about me ever since.
My birth mother told me that she feared how I would feel about her after all these years, but that our reunification only assured her that she had made the best decision. I was able to share about my loving Christian family, my faith and life today.
Today, we communicate regularly. It has taken time to get to know each other and process through all the emotions that have come with it, but I am grateful for our relationship. CCS has always held a special place in my parents’ heart, but now I understand firsthand how much they truly care about everyone involved in adoption.
